My word count goal was only 5,000 words and I reached it in the first week, but then my depression took over and all sense of creativity left my soul.
What I learned?
Well, I work well with routine and structure, but until I have my bipolar managed, I’m going to continue to struggle with finishing any projects or goals that I set for myself. Mental health is extremely important, so please, take care of yourselves. (Do what I say not what I do lol)
Also, I learn that I can write. I just need to stop being so critical of every sentence that I write and just write. Writing is hard, but it’s rewarding.
I’m struggling with writing this novel hardcore. Week #2 was a struggle. The main reason was not knowing what’s coming next. I also realized that I had a story premise not a plot. So I’ve been working on figuring out the plot so that writing can go more smoothly.
I did some rearranging of the scenes, which I need to make fuller, but with this rearrangement I have ‘more’ than 3 chapters so I’m really not doing that bad.
Another thing I realized is that I’m not the greatest at world building and descriptive writing. And this story takes both so that can contribute to the struggle.
My goal for the rest of Camp is to figure out the plot and reach between 8,000 to 10,000 words.
I’ve been waking up early, sometimes, even before the sun so I’ve been able to get my words in. Some days though writing doesn’t come easy and I struggle but I power through. I’m in camp cabins that are writing groups and I really am enjoying it. The human interaction is very much needed since where I live is under lock down.
I’m a pretty slow typer due to the fact I’m discovery writing this novel and have little to no information on where this novel is going. I’m just going for the ride. However, I do see myself type faster when I’m doing writing sprints with others. I like have that social aspect to writing since this can be a very lonely job.
I managed to write 2 chapters in the first week, which is pretty amazing seeing that I haven’t finished one chapter on other novels that I’ve been working on since 2016. 5,009 might not seem a lot to more experienced writers, but for me, the small wins mean everything and that’s what keeps me motivated and determined.
This year I’m trying to achieve the goal of writing 10,000 words for Camp NaNoWriMo. I’ve never finished writing a novel as I either spend all my time outlining or I don’t outline at all and get suck into rewriting the same scene over and over again as I discover it. This year hopefully is different since I’m in a writing cabin, I’m pacing myself with writing at least 500 words a day, I have the time to dedicate to writing since of the lock down due to Covid-19, and the online courses to guide me.
My essentials include: My MacBook Pro; Coursera, MIT online lectures and Brandon Sanderson’s lecture series on Youtube; a book called “Writing Fantasy & Science Fiction: How to Create Out-of-this-World Novels and Short Stories; other books to read for fun; paper and writing utensils; and finally my binder.
6:22 am 0 words written
I woke up before my alarm and began working on admin things like check my email and social media. I haven’t been feeling inspired and didn’t know what to write as a blog post until it dawned on me that I should document my Camp NaNoWriMo experince to keep me accountable. I’m going to watch some Authortube to get my writing cap on! Good luck to those who are also doing Camp!
7:29 30+ word written
I’m working on the first chapter which I always find the hardest to write. I always feel like I’m providing way too much info. I just don’t know how to fill the space with words that should be there. The more I practice the better I will get.
8:43 0 words written
I’m on the struggle bus. I’m still trying to get over the lump called the first scene for the first chapter. I don’t know why this is always the hardest for me to write but it is. My daily goal is 500 words. I hopefully can reach that by the end of the day. Why is writing so hard??
3:15 pm Current total 1,063
It was a bumpy start at the beginning but after some guidance and word sprints with my camp cabin I’ve managed to reach 1063. My writing has gotten more descriptive. I’m in the zone. I absolutely love writing about my main character and I love thinking about the world she lives in. This might be the first time I’m actually confident in the thought of finishing a novel but this is just the beginning. There’s a long way to go!
7:00 pm Current total 1,148
Between 3:15 and 7:00 I wrote a bit more but mostly took a break, eat dinner and take a nice hot bath and now I’m watching some TV. I might write more, but I’ve already meet my goal for the day!
It feels oh so good to achieve, doesn’t it? The goals that have been your list for days, weeks, months, years accomplished. That’s how I feel right now. Good. Seeing everything come together slowly feels amazing after what it seemed to be years of living in a dark tunnel with only a dimmed light. Goals what amazing things to have. But it’s the JOURNEY that counts. I have learned so much during these past few years and it has helped me grow as a person. Although, I wanted to give up and I still do sometimes, I’m so glad that I didn’t because I wouldn’t be here today, nor I would be the person I am. I’ve became a champion, stronger, a warrior. The errors and trials we go through make us human, but how we react to these trials changes the “outcome” we have. Our choices DO have consequences and awards and how we choose to act will determine what the universe gives back. I truly believe that if you put out positive vibes/actions then positive awards will be returned back to you. Just don’t lose faith in yourself.
My goals of starting a blog, doing commissions, and well working from home has been achieved, but this is only the beginning. I have so much more to achieve and so do you. One you achieved a goal start to strive to achieve the next. I like helping people and being creative, so my goals are revolved around that.
I’ve read somewhere that we shouldn’t share what we are working on or what our goals are since we would be less likely to achieve them. I don’t agree with that particularly since telling someone could be a sense of accountability. I have a lot of things I want to do, but I don’t have the self-discipline to keep up and actually achieve all of my goals. So, telling someone or putting myself into the mindset that I’m writing and creating for someone else keeps me “in line”. But that doesn’t mean telling every detail of what you are working on is necessary just a little info goes a far way since the people you told is looking forward to you finishing whatever you were working on. For example, I’ve told a couple of my friends about how I was writing a short story and that’s all the info I gave them but the anticipation they had of the story gave me the motivation to write. Same goes for the blog, I get motivation to write when I see that people like my posts or comment. The satisfaction keeps me on track. Just like crossing out something you’ve accomplished on a to-do list, it’s the greatest feeling ever.
That being said, I would like to share some of my goals with y’all. Firstly, I would love to continue writing blog post and reach a wider audience and potentially monetize my other blog. Secondly, I would like to write 4 short stories a month and share them either on Wattpad, archive of our own or on here. Thirdly, try and use the internet as little as possible and write by hand since I work better by hand. Fourthly, read at least 2 books a month and provide reviews on here.
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Doing any kind of work for the first time is scary but it will be worth it in the end. Taking the first step is nerve-wracking, but you took it so pat yourself on the back. You are doing something YOU love and something YOU wanted to do. That takes a lot of strength and bravery.
Starting writing commissions aka becoming a freelance writer aka being paid to be a writer has something I’ve always wanted to do, but this is my first time ever doing this. I was/am nervous like really anxious, but my friends and family are super supportive, and they keep telling me that they are proud of me, that everything is going to be fine. I know that I’m a decent writer and qualified, but the negative self-talk creeps up and the doubt begins thus all the “what-if” questions begin to spiral. I am thankful for having the support because well it keeps me grounded and I can fight those voices with the supportive comments. Along with commissions, I created a Ko-Fi and Patreon. From picking prices for my writing offerings to picking Patreon, my anxious thinking that I’m not good enough to be paid more rose. I had a small breakdown that thankfully one of my friends was there to talk to me. An additional morale booster was a twitter DM about how when I post they get emails and they read my posts. Then they explained how they related to the post. That’s what I hope for when I write. That’s why I love writing. That’s why I want to write and blog.
If you are looking for a writer (blog, article, or creative), academic research/writing or story development help read the information below then contact me if interested in hiring me.
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I’m very diligent with communication, but feel free to ask about the progress of the commissions. BUT don’t spam me.
Writing will be done in MY style, however, discussions can be done if you have a certain direction you want the writing to go. I will provide examples below and additional examples can be provided in our DM or emailed if asked for them.
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Kpop/anime/YN or OC
OG story idea
Will NOT write about
Large age gaps (13+)
Any idea that makes me uncomfortable to write about
Becoming a blogger was long time coming for me. The idea of having a blog has been with me for years but I never went through with it. I love writing and I love helping others by using my knowledge and experiences. So why did I wait so long?
I waited so long because of mental health struggles. Due to those struggles I have low confidence, bad anxiety, depression, and consistent thoughts that I’m not good enough. Then this year I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 thus received a whirlwind of medication. But the next thing I know I have this blog, another in the works, and several creative projects as well as working on myself.
So if there’s something you want to do like starting a blog, a YouTube channel, writing a song, becoming a published author but you think you’re not good enough, just do it. I want you to just start today. Say to yourself, I AM GOOD enough.
I am waiting….
Good. Don’t let your mind hold you back from achieving your goals. Find support either irl or online. You can find support groups on Facebook, Twitter, etc and let those serve as confidence boosts as well as ways to learn.
I have to constantly remind myself that this is just the beginning and I will get better as I go. We all have to start from somewhere.
How did I start? I just did. And boy have I learned a lot in the past few days. And that’s ok. It’s ok to make mistakes. We all do. We learn from mistakes, that what makes us humans.
Morning. I’m no morning person, but my alarm is set at 8:30 so that I will be up by 9 to take my medication. My morning routine consist of me waking up, taking medication, going to the bathroom, making some coffee or tea, getting dressed and making goals for the day.
Typically I make 5 goals for the day. The list below is an example of what my goals for the day look like from March 18th:
read at least 3 other blogs & engage
post in Facebook groups & engage with @ least 5 other posts
engage w/ @ least 5 others on twitter and insta
continue working on the application for the MBB zine
start creating the new application for the game & continue writing the basic storyline
I like making goals as a productivity tool since they can be more detailed and by using S.M.A.R.T goals I tend to get more done and feel more accomplished. I highly recommend doing this. Let me know if I should do a separate post about how I use S.M.A.R.T daily goals.
Before having the schedule I would sometimes jump around from task to task, but wouldn’t finish all of my goals since other times I would only focus on one project or blog. A schedule isn’t set into zone so I can adapt it when necessary, but going by the same schedule each day creates a routine and thus I don’t have to think about what to do next since I already know.
8:30 – 9:00
9:00 – 9:30
check emails & social media
9:30 – 11:30
11:30 – 12:30
lunch/check emails/social media
12:30 – 5:30
5:30 – 7:00
7:00 – 8:30
8:30 – 9:00
snack time & medication
9:00 – bedtime
My schedule, it can be flexible when need be but I’m trying to stick to it.
I work mostly in my room since it’s where my desk and bed is located. However, I do go to the library and a coffee shop when I just feel like I’m not being productive in my room anymore. A change of scenery tends to help. But due to Social Distancing, I’m working from different parts of the house now. I jump around location to location because I get bored and to keep being product I move around. But when I get tired from sitting, I find places where I can work while standing up.
Staying on task can be difficult when you are working from home. There’s no special spell to keep you focus. Knowing how you work will allow you create a schedule and work space throughout you house so that you can get your work done.
The Huion Inspiroy H610Pro V2 is my first drawing tablet ever so I was very, very excited for the product to arrive today. I was working on a traditional art piece when the UPS pulled up. I stopped immediately to run down the stairs to get the package. Due to the virus, however, I had to open the package to disinfect. That, however, didn’t ruin my excitement since my FIRST drawing tablet had arrived and I’ve been waiting for this. Nothing was going to ruin my parade. This isn’t sponsored, I’m not getting paid to for this first impression. All of my thoughts and comments are my own and honest.
The version I got came with a glove, the pen, pen holder, extra nips, adaptor and instructions. NGL, I was super excited to see the glove because I forgot that it came with this one. I honestly thought we got the one without the glove. Oh well, what a pleasant surprise. The glove is really comfortable and a bit silky. The pen is also really nice, however, this is my first pen like this so there are probably better ones out there. But for someone who is just starting out, I think this is pretty good considering the price.
Then I put into use and wow, I love how smooth it is. The drawing software I am using is Sketchbook. I also have Krita, but I didn’t like the feel of it with the tablet. At first, it was weird and difficult, but as I progressed in the two sketches below I really got a feel for it and it became relaxing. That’s one thing I love about art, at least for me, I can do it for hours and not even realize how much time went by.
I’m really excited to see how much better I get at art especially digital art with the addition of the tablet in my art collection. To my fellow artists out there, what is your favorite medium and what was your first tablet when you were first starting out?
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What should I do to keep myself busy but attentive? I thought to myself. I’ve always wanted to start a blog, but I never knew what I could blog about or if I would even be interesting enough. But through some encouragement, I finally started a blog. This blog is a place where I can talk about what I am passionate about also a place to record my journey in profressional, creative and personal growth. I welcome you all to join me in discussion.
I’m here to bring y’all on a journey of both creativity and academics. The endeavors and adventurs I go on as I try to achieve my goals and become the best verison of myself. I’m here to help and inspire others with my experience and knowledge.
A big part of me starting this blog is because of my mental health. I have Bipolar II, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Insomnia. And in a way, this blog is going to keep me accountable for working on what I need to work on as well as working on myself. My mental illnesses are also apart of my journey and I want to share that side as well in hopes it could help someone else.
I have a personal journal, which I will blog about occasionally since I love stationery and journaling. But what I blog publically is the thoughts and knowledge that I want to share to which I either think will help others or to start a discussion.
Topics that I will talk about will include public health, disaster relief, humanitarian aid, human rights, NGO, non-profit, politics, law, governance, international relations, history, development & sustainability, economics, business, language learning, career prep, documentaries, books, mental health, creative problem-solving, studying, research, the arts, stationery, and professional/personal development. If any of these topics sound interesting to you or something you are passionate about please subscribe and message me!
My goal for this blog is to have some wonderful discussions, reach out and hopefully help others, and to record my journey consistently. I want everyone to have a good time and leave inspired and happy.
Rating: 4 out of 5.
Evan, thank you! I’m glad to have started and on this journey. I wish you also the best of luck.
I’m with you! Congrats on starting and best of luck! 🙂